remember to never let me go

Wow, i'm finally back to blogging. feels weird but heck, let's see how long this can last. anyway, things have been pretty crazy since i came. excusemua to(?).

Oh shoot, yes i'm in belfast now. Confused if its northern ireland or united kingdom? Me too haha. They claim to be Irish but they use poundsterling. So yeah helluva confused. Anyway this is not why i'm blogging. I'm blogging because, i need a place to pour out my feelings, my thoughts and maybe my excitements and dejections.

Don't ask me if its better than sydney or singapore, for that matter. Its different in many ways. Ways that are incomparable. Maybe sydney means something for me. But in life we got to move on and forward. Well, i won't deny that some days i still look at the hundreds of pics we took in sydney. Memories with them are so so precious. There are times when i'd kill to be there again. As the saying goes, just like the old times. But now i'm not 8 km away from bondi beach. I'm thousands of miles away from the place that taught me a lot. I'm in Belfast and there's no way i can go back to sydney. So I have to be happy, because happiness comes from within right.

I won't say its splendid. But this is more than enough. Count myself lucky (:

there's something i probably want to note, so i won't forget. (or if i do, i can refer back here :P) i went out for supper tonight in the cold and i had such great fun. It was simple supper, simple and cheap food, simple seats (by the streets on the stairs), but with a great person. Thanks. :)

been blogwalking and many have been writing (or reflecting) a lot about what happened in 2010. i'm glad we all become a better person day by day, year by year. let me do mine too :)

2010, was indeed a special year for me. I guess I learnt a lot. It taught me to let go of people, to understand that everything in life is fleeting. nothing stays the same forever, thus we should treasure everything we have at that point of time, never ever take anyone for granted. It also taught me not to dwell so much on the past and live in the present.

I had some of my lowest moments in 2010, where i felt that nothing was right and i was going to fall apart anytime soon. But I managed to pull it through, thanks to those people who stayed by my side, and constantly reminding me to never stop praying, seek God for help and assurance and everything would be fine. I trusted in God and things eventually turned around. I became a whole lot wiser too. I guess all those sleepless nights, buckets of tears, all those were worth it because i figured out it was God's way of telling me to never ever take anyone for granted and if people want me in their life, they'll make space for me. and i shouldn't try too hard. It was a tough but indeed valuable year i went through. I hope 2011 has more to offer and will teach me more and make me an even better person (:

let's never give up, as there will always be a way out to everything.

love,

omg hey!

How long haven't i blog. i almost forgot i have this space. anywhoo, happy new year thou its super late!

my new year resolution? to not take anyone for granted (:

i love you all and see you!

don't make promises you can't fulfill. if you don't know that i don't like to be kept in suspense, means u don't know me at all.

after tomorrow, we're done.

God please give me strength. i think i will need it. guide me out of this, please?

kinda sick of trying to make things work, let things stay the same you know. maybe everyone's ready to move on. but i am not. give me some time, i still need you guys in my life. i don't understand. how do you put everything behind you so quickly, what stop you from looking back? or maybe its just me you're gonna lose, so it doesn't matter?

ok let me put this in a very messy way but i hope you understand. you see, all of us used to see one another everyday, hang out and have fun. next year, most of you are gonna go back and reunite, but not me. so for you, maybe its just one less person thus insignificant. but for me, i'm not coming back so it means i won't see all of you anymore, and that's a big change, you know. its drastic. imagine not seeing people who you lived with, you go to school with, you snuck out with, you laughed with etc.

maybe i need to go for moving on course instead

sorry very pissed now.

i can kill