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All of you who have known me for quite some time must have known that i'm terribly bad at dealing with changes. And as you could have guessed, i still am not used to living life this way. Its as simple as not being used to the freezing weather, the environment, the way people make me realise how out of place i am. To be honest i don't like it here. I'm not sure if its because of the homesickness i'm feeling, or that's just an alibi i've been using to hide the truth. Because the truth is, half my heart didn't feel i belong here. And the truth is, it hurts so bad when i'm away from all the people that i love.

I'm not even used to living life this way. People used to get things done for me and now, i have to settle everything myself, my own way. While its a good opportunity in trying to be self-reliant and independent, i find it really hard to adapt. Sometimes I find myself feeling so weak, and breaking down especially after my mom hung up the phone, i feel so lonely. Every time my mom called, i feel safe and companied but the moment the line goes dead, the feeling comes again and all i could do was just to blame the reality.

Sometimes i wish this was all a nightmare, that it'll be over when i opened my eyes, but no, i always woke up in white painted room with gigantic booster. How i wish i could still sleep in my bed back home, waking up to the morning sun, feeling too sleepy to hit the gym but i did anyway. This feels like, i've just lost my world. Now that i'm here, i realised how much i actually love the people i left, and how much they really mean to me. My heart still cringes, so bad.

But thank God for my best friend, arwin who listened to all my heart felt rantings and complaints, always there to entertain me with all his bullshits. You're so nice. curhat buddy ftw :)

The key is to believe

i don't remember you

Bonjour,

I'm doneeeee with my laundry finally i'm so glad its not piling anymore.

Btw, i went to town with sherly, sharon, hilda and moni to buy my stuff. Finally bought most of them. I have booster now so yay can sleep peacefully. Bought so many stuffs and yesss i'm so happy now my room is proper :) just a little bit more mess i need to clear. School's starting on monday. suck i don't like.

I don't have anyone who can go retarded with me anymore. they will think i'm retarded. :(

anyonghaseyo

Arwin says (12:50 AM):
not funny
i siao alr
Qhest
❤ says (12:50 AM):
haiii
Arwin says (12:50 AM):
T?n'si
Yawwa
❤ says (12:50 AM):
wth is that
Arwin says (12:50 AM):
Mosha vi yong, peli
Nesindisa
hello
❤ says (12:50 AM):
WTH
Arwin says (12:50 AM):
Shlama 'lokhun
Shlomo

this guy is mad

afrohead

Omg hi just got off from the phone with afrohead

Just talked about my life here and it made me realise how messy my life is right now. I mean, there are so much i still need to settle like, i don't even own a dustbin in my room. this is baaaaaad. and i haven't do my laundry since i arrived i know man disgusting right but this is your friend. the excuse is, i don't have enough coins to wash my clothes who ask them set so expensive. oh and my skin is peeling so badly esp my face i don't like this. it feels hot and burning every time :(

HAHAHAHA arwin you're 4 minutes late but okay la i don't kick your ass

someone said: hey you're really quiet you know. why don't you talk?
i told afro and he laughed so loud.

k bye i can't wait for december :P