Journal of the fickle minded

kinda sick of trying to make things work, let things stay the same you know. maybe everyone's ready to move on. but i am not. give me some time, i still need you guys in my life. i don't understand. how do you put everything behind you so quickly, what stop you from looking back? or maybe its just me you're gonna lose, so it doesn't matter?

ok let me put this in a very messy way but i hope you understand. you see, all of us used to see one another everyday, hang out and have fun. next year, most of you are gonna go back and reunite, but not me. so for you, maybe its just one less person thus insignificant. but for me, i'm not coming back so it means i won't see all of you anymore, and that's a big change, you know. its drastic. imagine not seeing people who you lived with, you go to school with, you snuck out with, you laughed with etc.

maybe i need to go for moving on course instead